For most of my life I had a mindset of inadequacy.
I felt like I was lesser than everybody around me, and I was privileged that people would even let me be in their presence.
I thought that I was undeserving of love. I would get into terrible relationships and cling on to them as if my life depended on it, because I genuinely felt like there was never going to be another relationship down the line. Now I know, that was all entirely in my head. In reality, I see now that as one door closes, another opens. Recently, I realized that my old relationship was never going to fix itself. I pulled the plug on our romantic partnership without any plans for a new boyfriend. Unfortunately, my HVAC system had a different plan. The day after my breakup, I woke up to find that my indoor air temperature control equipment was not responsive to my thermostat changes. No matter what I attempted to do on the air temperature control device, my air conditioner and furnace were not turning on. I decided to call a local HVAC company because I couldn’t survive the day without air conditioning. When the HVAC technician arrived at my door, I was honestly surprised. I expect air quality control specialists to be middle aged men with beer bellies, I suppose. This HVAC technician was anything but. While he worked on my air conditioning unit and I showed him my thermostat, we had a lot of entertaining conversation. At the end of my AC repair appointment, he asked me on a date. We’ve been together ever since, and my air quality and relationship status has never been better.